Life's been busy. Stepped down 11days ago. 4years sure flew by quickly. Still remember my first day in the gz room, the day that we stepped up and now we've stepped down.
Gratz to Vernice, Sing Wei, Huilian and Siaohui :) I'm sure you guys will be able to bring gz to greater heights!
SYF 2011.
I'll be ever so proud of this bunch of people. Months of hard work and it finally paid off. Gold. <3 I love you guys.
Prelim1 began on Thursday. First two were languages which were rather ok. Baby flew went off to Mt Ophir on Friday, returning tomorrow.
Nothing much going on this week besides the Royal Wedding which I failed to catch as I was out. Sighs.
We've walked 9months into this relationship. We had our ups and downs and we got through them, hand in hand. But not always eye to eye. But still, we made it through. I don't know if this is just a test or is it a sign for me to come clean with everything. Jerome's words struck me. I mean, it wasn't that I didn't know what kind of person you were before we got together. It was that I didn't knew you were still that way when you were with me. Yeah, he said it was the beginning and he reminded you. But still, if you needed someone to remind you not to go around flirting with other girls when you were already together with me, then were you really in love with me at that point of time? Or was I just another replacement just because you couldn't get her? You said it struck you with her words. Were they true? Or were they words JUST to please me. I've been doubting us. How it all started. How it all came about. How will it last. Will we make it to the end. I don't know. I never did. I'm afraid. Have always been. But then again, I had no right to blame you or even be angry at you, not even the right to feel hurt. Cause then, I knew I needed you. But was I really sure that I was completely utterly in love with you, I wasn't sure. Were you a replacement, to fill that gap in my heart or was it all real and I somehow knew it at the back of my head. Maybe it happened all too fast? But somehow things still managed to work out till today. But with that kind of beginning, how long can we last? I'm not willing to place my bets on forever. Not anymore. I ain't sure. I thought I was a princess right from the start, but no. I ain't a princess. And this ain't no fairytale. Its time to come clean about it. Come clean about that. And lets just see where it takes us. It'll either make us or break us. Its just a test.
